Pahadi Philippa

I watched QALA , a fortnight back but this movie keeps coming back to me. Sometimes it feels as if a qala resides in me who's seeking the acceptance from the most important people in her life. It reminds me that how we go to any extent to be valued and loved by them. That song , " phero na nazar se nazariya" captures that feeling so perfectly. Whenever I hear this song, it touches a chord of my heart. The tussle that qala faught alone for the acceptance from her mother is a devastating beauty. Also, the cinematography and the background scores were breathtaking and melodious respectively. Qala touched the softest corners of my heart. The character of Majrooh played by Varun Grover reminds me of my real friends who always care and check on me. Even the dialogues in the movie are classic. "दौर बदलेगा, दौर की ये पुरानी आदत है।"  It is a masterpiece but a heartbreaking masterpiece.

One who knows about rookies and MVPs, One who knows about  Sundress and jumpsuits, One who knows from caramel nude to fuschia pink, One who knows the offside in soccer( and in life too), One who knows not only the battles of Panipat but also the battle of Chausa, One who knows the trade-offs and opportunity costs, One who knows Seychelles and Siachen, One who knows soundtracks and scores, One who knows the madhyam-marga and the stoicism, One who knows the goldilocks zone despite not leaving the comfort zones, One who knows the mandala art, One who knows from BTS to dhillion to Pt. Ravishankar, One who knows the anatomy of MAKDAs, One who is a rebel........ alas I wish I were. One who knows ... One who knows......  One who knows...............  his list is very long but it is much much more than worth achieving and my journey still goes on to become the one who knows.

"सफर में धूप तो होगी, जो चल सको तो चलो|" और अगर ना चल सको तो भी चलना तो पड़ेगा .. That's what  which I have understood lately. Past failures, bad experiences will haunt you, uncertainty of future will traumatize your heart but you have no choice my dear friend or rather to endure is your only choice. The real agony which is bigger than anything for an individual is losing his self esteem in those setbacks. You doubt yourself everyday. Then somehow you gather those remnants of confidence and come to your abode. I have always felt home is that time which you spend with your loved ones , your family and your friends. It can be the two room set where you grew up or a hostel room or even those regular one hour talks. But today I have understood home is a person for me and she's my mother. No matter where I'm i feel like I'm at home when she's there for me. I would always wake up and gather every ounce of confidence which is left in me just for her. I will battl...

I love poetry and those love filled shayari. Infact at some point of my life I seeked someone who can be my Jack Dawson from Titanic or Dimple from Shershah. Love is so grand and majestic in our imagination that we make it complex in reality. Isn't that love when you call your friend at 11 in the night from ola and she makes you feel the safest. Isn't that love when your grandmother spends all of her pension money on your studies. Isn't that love when your colleagues support you in a throng of strangers. Isn't that love when your mother calls you atleast twice everyday to ask the same repeated questions. ofcourse all of that is love and love only. Love is in simple small things. You will miss this lovely and lively love everyday if you still try to discover it or catch it by some or the other means.  Love was always with you and you were always deserving of it. You just need to understand that pain is inevitable but it doesn't mean that you shouldn't live for th...

Dear Phillipa, Consider me your well-wisher or the person who loves you a lot. You need to hear something, believe it or not but these months are going to be really crucial for you. There was a time when you were happy about some parts of your life. Now, you have become ignorant of the reality. Your mind knows everything but there is something which stops you from doing the essential. Hours after hours, days after days and months after months will keep on passing like this. Your life has become a business cycle, initially you observe a boom in your emotional intelligence and your life goes on track for a while but after sometime the slump kicks in and you are back to the same rut. I don't want to be harsh on you , because I believe in the power of love and persuasion. My motive is to make you see the reality but I don't want your actions to be driven by fear. As you know that fear has power but it is short lived unlike love. I just want to say that, you have everything that you...

  That big bunglow on the left side of my lane compelled me to envy the life of IFS officers for a second but the next second I got reminded of UPSC pre IFS cut-off and as expected I wasn't envy at all after that. We have all behaved like that bird and that cattle at some or the other point in our life. I don't know if you get it or not but I could never move on from the ecology chapter and the term commensalism. Well, you need COOL engineering in every biology related institute. KV signboard reminded me of 2013 AIIMS entrance and my chachaji and my stupidity of appearing for that exam and more so of filling that form. Finally , my eyes could see the beauty of this marvellous building which was looking even magnificent under those clouds.( I have to praise the clouds afterall they occupy more than 50% of the picture) Corridors: From School to college to FRI they are witness of not only the SOTY scenes but also of the chatter,the punishment and the connection to the final exit. ...

They say that a picture says a thousand words. I hope "they" aren't lying. However I believe a name says a thousand words. They say the name tells you the preference being either blue or pink. I hope "they" aren't lying. However I'm still confused why Pushpa likes blue and Pushparaj likes pink. They say it tells about the religion. I hope "they" aren't lying. However I know atheists having name too. I believe Shakespeare was right , What's in a name afterall? ( unless you add a boring prefix or Suffixe to it ofcourse) I just want it to shine that much that one day when someone asks, one can respond with arrogance like Ghalib did - वो पूछता है कि गालिब कौन, कोई बतलाओ की हम बतलाए क्या? what do u think this picture says?